Minitest is coming! Hehe kenapa macam happy? Walaupunnn nota berlambak lagi tak sentuh.........
I dont know, but I feel happy today, its like getting a new spirit to start a good life ahead :D
Semalam kelas leadership, and at the end of the class masa dah nak habis tu, doctor requested five people to volunteer come in front and the question was,
Who are u in the next 20 years and what are your plans to achieve that?
Banyak permintaan nak suruh I went in front and bercerita (konon famous la kan haha :P). We want kak, we want kak! (ok tu rekaan sendiri hakhak). Btw, kak is what they call me here. Tua kah?Atau matangkah? Atau garang sangatkah? ok never mind, tak kisah pun panggil kak ke nama ke, asalkan it means well. Tapi panggil kak rasala macam diri ni matang sket haha tetiba demand perasan jer.
So, my leadership classmates, u guys baca kat sini je la yo. In case u all baca my blog la. IN CASE. In 20 years time, it is still a bit unclear because in 20 years time, it will have to depend on this early coming 10 years. But if in 10 years time, InsyaAllah Im clear of what im going to be.
- a doctor
- a full time student
- a part time student
- a businesswoman with a factory
- a wife
- a mother?
A doctor. In around 3 and half years from now, biiznillah, I will finish this meds school and get d title dr for the human, the ummah. After that, 2 years housemanship if there is nothing blocking in d way. But why full and part time student? Im not quite sure yet about the flow of another degree that Im planning to take after MBBS. Been longing to take Business study after MBBS. I cant live without numbers. I love numbers, I love calculating, I love to expect the result based on numbers! Numbers are absolute thingy, u cant simply change it. U cant simply tolerate with it. U cant just be very loose with it. My success or my failure, I love to see it with numbers. I know it may sounds a bit weird, but Im passionate about numbers. And thats y I have the feelings that I will become an anaesthetist later when specializing. I know I made it sounds as if it is that simple, but dont worry too much, there is always a way for everything u want in life.
Part time student is for that Business study, and full time is for the specialization in medical field. I have always been longing to study business, and I thought that it was too ambitious but it turns out that not only me has that kind of dream. Chatted with a friend before, and she was into IT. And asked another friend to join the pakatan, and she was into business like I do. So now im having the moral support for the particular dream. Planning together to achieve that.
Factory. Yes, factory. Factory apa? Manusia sustain lives with water, food, air, home/ tempat berteduh. So, my business akan berkisar sekitar those essential elements of life. You grab the foundation of life, u will hold the world, its as simple as that. For me, itu pegangan dan prinsip saya sejak dulu. And what are my plans? Been saving up since 18. InsyaAllah by 30, terbina satu kilang. Kenapa kena kilang? Materialistiknya awak. :) To do other things in life, untuk apa2 saja saham dunia mahupun akhirat, u need to have a strong basis so that takkan goyah. How to describe it... If u have the capabilities to give tanpa rasa ragu, then u can contribute more to the ummah, to the religion. So im trying to form that foundation first. Asas yang kuat dari awal so that I wont hesitate to give to the needy. At least, that is what I feel I can contribute pada yang memerlukan. Im not really good at mengajar or giving lecture or apa2 yang berkaitan. So, memang niat di hati nak cari saham by mengajar and bagi ilmu bermanfaat tapi I dont have enough skills yet to do that. Nantilah, im polishing myself. Basically ni semua masa untuk grab skills and keeping it together untuk bekal masa akan datang. Macam lama, padahal lagi berapa tahun je lagi nak face the real world ='=. Suddenly rasa masa tak cukup untuk lengkapkan diri.
A wife and mother? Itu I leave it all to the One. Tiada daya upaya untuk menentukan. Memang merancang, tapi sepenuh harapan hanya pada Dia untuk yang terbaik. Too much hope on the creation of Him may deviate me from good things.
And kenapa duit itu penting sebagai bekalan sebelum kerja? As a doctor, u will be busy. Your life will be hectic, macam there is no other things that u do other than serving ur best untuk patients. And sometimes, tanpa foundation yang kuat, doctors yang baru mula-mula kerja tend to have culture shock. Ini yang I cakap dari pengalaman lah. Selalu dengar doctor2 muda bercakap, keja penat lelah x berbaloi dengan gaji. Bila dah habis simpanan guna untuk kawin, untuk beli kereta n everything, cakap kena keja lebih kuat ni untuk simpan balik duit. Im not sure but for me, then what is the initial purpose of u being a doctor? Adakah sebab duit or ikhlas nak tolong tanpa berkira? Ye saya faham, hidup perlukan duit. And kalau masa belajar di pamper dengan segala scholarship and duit poket parents, nanti dah keja will u be the same? Or akan struggle to keep surviving? Antara sincerity to serve ur patients and the craving untuk money, yang mana akan menang? I dont want to jeorpadize the sincerity of serving over money. Tak mau ambil risiko diri jadi tak ikhlas masa bekerja, xmau jadi money oriented dalam bidang medic. Bagi saya, medic is like a tuaian for akhirat. And because of that, for the world, I need to have other sources of money and income. So that sincerity and money, can be separated. I know, cakap memang senang kan. But its okay, tak cuba tak tahu. Memang nampak ambitious and memenatkan, but nothing is impossible. So kena mula dari sekarang la. And thats what im doing. Ok dah banyak benor membebel.
Sambung study sekarang. Wasalam.