Wednesday, June 29, 2011
when the figure is a human, it means no absolute truth
Xpola, den pikir hal sendiri dulu jo la yo, kita improve diri dulu mantop2 baru syok!
Simple, true is true and false is false.
There are many things happening nowadays. Many issues, many versions, many thoughts and many more. Some are right and some are wrong. What should i do then?
Alhamdulillah, I've lived for 21 years and 3 months. For plus minus 19 years, i live here. This is my hometown. The place where everything seems to be seen as 'righteous' :) I dont care what the outsiders say. They are not from here, they dont live here, they only see from far away. Why should i care? They can say anything, but they dont go through it. So i believe what i believe. Experiences teaches me to decide. It taught me to see people in different perspective. I see, i hear, I feel. It is not the talks of an outsider that decides what i believe. It is not my parents who decides what i believe. It is what i observe for more than a decade.
You have to go through it, then u know what is right or wrong. You dont talk without prove. You dont talk based on papers. You dont admit that u do it if u actually dont.
From far, we wont see things clearly. From far, good things can be fake. But how would we know? Based on what people say? Nope. Observe and feel it, then u know.
Human is human. No one escapes from sin and mistakes except Rasulullah saw. NO ONE. We should realize that aren't we? And what should we do? We dont condemn, we dont insult, we dont say that they are kafir, we dont say that they are going to hell. Instead we correct them in a good way. Hari ini kamu mungkin di atas, namun esok lusa siapa tahu? Hari ini mereka mungkin muslim tp bukan mukmin, namun esok lusa muslimkah kamu, mukminkah kamu? Who are we to decide?
Bad things CANNOT be corrected by bad words. Lumrah. Agama, agama, agama. Kita mengaku Islam, orang lain bukan Islamkah? Mudahnya menjatuhkan hukum. Jasa tetap jasa, jangan kita lupa. Agama tetap agama, jangan sekali jadikan dusta.
Aku hormat orang beragama,
Aku hormat orang yang berjasa,
Aku hormat orang yang berjaya,
Aku lebih hormat orang yang BERJAYA MEMBUATKAN ORANG BERAGAMA.
Berfikir itu bermacam cara,
Berfikir itu ada pantang larangnya,
Berfikir itu untuk berjaya,
Berfikir itu bukan untuk membinasa.
Orang menegah bukan sengaja,
Orang menegah bukan sentiasa,
Orang menegah ada sebabnya,
Adakah kita yang telah terlupa?
Setan iblis menjadi bahasa,
Hina terkutuk menjadi bicara,
Bodoh bangang menjadi cara,
Adakah itu dituntut agama???
Bukan sengaja mahu berbicara, namun hati dalam dilema.
Hurmmm.
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
apa dah jadi?
Lidahnya petah mengucapkan apa yang ingin dikata,
Namun aku terdiam tanpa bicara,
Lidahku kelu mendengar bicaranya,
Kerana mataku, akalku dan imanku menidakkan apa yang diucapkannya,
Aku tertanya2,
Siapakah dia, siapakah dia, siapakah dia,
Adakah alim hatinya seperti tutur katanya,
Adakah benar hatinya seperti yang dibicarakan,
Apakah benar ajarannya yang dikatakan agama.
Aku bertutur melalui mata,
Aku bertutur melalui akal,
Aku bertutur dengan harapannya tidak menyalahi agama.
Namun, aku HAIRAN!
Aku BIMBANG!
Aku sukar menerima bicaranya.
Kerana apa? Aku pun tidak mengerti,
Kerana ceteknya ilmu di dadaku? Kerana butir bicaranya yang tidak menyenangkan jiwa?
Perlakuannya melambangkan hatinya,
Biarpun bicaranya melambangkan sebaliknya,
Dia dianggap sebaik-baik manusia,
Namun aku yang berada bersamanya,
Tidak merasakan kebaikannya, tidak terserlah kehebatannya,
Adakah aku hanya melihat yang jauh nun di sana,
Ataupun sememangnya dia berdusta?
Aku tidak sekali mendengar dan menerima seadanya,
Apa yang didengar dicari buktinya,
Bagiku, A bukanlah A, B bukanlah B,
A dan B mungkin sebenarnya C?
Bicaranya kudengar sebelah telinga saja,
Kenapa? Kenapa? Kenapa?
Kerana aku tidak melihat bukti kehebatan katanya,
Perlakuannya tidak serupa,
Katanya berubah sentiasa,
Aku melihat, aku mendengar, aku menganalisa,
Aku bertanya imanku, aku bertanya akalku,
Pemikiran ini cuba dibuka seluasnya,
Mulut ini ditutup serapatnya,
Kerana apa?
Kerana aku tidak percaya,
Kerana agama tidak membenarkannya!
Aku tinggal di daerah ini,
Sejak lahir sehingga kini,
Aku tertanya apa yang dicari oleh manusia-manusia ini,
Sedangkan bukti itu sudah disaji?
Ku fikirkan, Ku hayati,
Apa maksud semua ini???
Sampai bila, sampai bila, sampai bila???
Pengalaman mengajarku mengenal insan dan durja,
Penilaianku bukan berdasarkan apa yang dikata,
Namun aku menilai melalui apa yang dirasa,
Sejak kecil sehingga dewasa,
Tiada apa yang dikata, dikotakan menjadi yang nyata.
Mereka boleh berkata apa saja,
Namun tidak mereka ketahui kebenarannya,
Pabila ditanya, di manakah buktinya???
Bibir terkatup rapat, membisu tanpa bicara.
Pabila ditanya adakah agama membenarkannya???
Wajah tertunduk kosong semata.
Pabila ditanya, mengapa berkata sesedap rasa???
Jawapan diberi seperti jenaka.
Kerana mendengar orang berbicara, kerana ibu bapa menanamkan cara.
Adakah itu yang dikatakan agama?
Adakah itu yang mahu dipertahankan?
Adakah itu yang mahu dibawa ke sana?
Adakah itu yang menjadi prinsip hidupmu?
Berbuatlah seperti apa yang dijaja,
Jangan diconteng arang ke muka,
Jangan sesedap rasa melontar bicara,
Kerana ahirnya bukan hanya diri yang binasa, yang tidak bersalah turut menjadi mangsa.
Aku sedih, aku kecewa,
Akal diberi tidak diguna,
Pendidikan yang tinggi menjadi sia-sia,
Amarah dijadikan tunjang agama,
Kata kesat dan nista menjadi biasa,
Adakah itu yang kamu katakan agama???
Ilmu ku tidak sebanyak mana,
Namun ku cuba,
Berbicara seadanya,
Kerana menyampaikan, itu yang dimintaNya.
Harapanku,
Cubalah berbaik laku,
Jangan berlawan sesama suku,
Apa yang tidak disukai janganlah dibiarkan berlagu,
Kelak menyesal tidak sebulu.
Apa nak jadi pada Malaysia?
Monday, June 27, 2011
pesan ma
- dah solat? sihat x? dah makan? belajar x hari ni? (yg last tu selalu susah nak jawab semenjak tua ni ='=)
- dont give problems to others. DONT. make sure jgn susahkan org lain, kalau kena mintak tlg jgk, balaslah dengan apa2. orang berbudi kita berbahasa. org dah susah2 tolong kita, buat baik dekat kita, bagila apa2. memang org jarang akan mintak balasan, tp kena pandai2 sendiri la fikir kesian dia spent masa n tenaga tolong kita. Barula orang x akan susah nak tolong lain kali. Bukanlah bermaksud nak gunakan duit n materialistik, tp at least it shows that we are concern tentang org yg tlg kita tu. Dia pun akan rasa senang hati untuk bantu lain kali. Orang memberi kita merasa, orang berbudi kita berbahasa kan2 ;) Its like, kadang2 bukannya formally said as tolong, but i think faham la kot. manners, manners, manners. Sometimes org bukannya nak sgt pun duit ke apa, but the thought and appreciation is important. We treat people like how we want to be treated la. Its like contoh when saya ajak orang keluar untuk teman pegi mana2 or settlekan apa2 urusan, my mom akan tanya either i ada belanja dia makan ke apa ke. kalau org tu guna kereta, ada bagi duit minyak ke x ke. Its like xpe kalau berlebih belanja sikit pun sbb kita yang ajak kan. macam I yang ajak dia keluar kan, habis masa dia lagi, xkan duit dia pun nak habis sama?dia sudi nak teman pun da bagus. Kalau saya berkira, my mom mesti cakap macam, "Hello, u yang ajak kan? xkan dia nak teman sesaje sampai kering tekak penat kaki n habis duit? unless la kalau dia pun mmg nak keluar ada tujuan jugak" (ayat rekaan semata) its common sense n manners. Kadang2 kalau kita x dibagitau mcm tu mesti x sedar kan. Its good to have someone yang remind u pasal benda2 macam tu all the times, like ibu2 kita semua ;)
- be independent. Sama la dgn point kat atas. Jangan bergantung pada org lain. Kalau terpaksa sgt bergantung pada org tu, make sure tau adab2 n cara2 nya. BE INDEPENDANT. if we let ourselves be too dependant on others, we will tend to be weak. Kita akan rasa terlalu secure smpai we dont even know our own capabilities. Sometimes, u just have to redah all the things. Kalau x, sampai bila nak bergantung pada orang. Sekali dua kali xpe, but kalau dah macam berkali2, org pun akan fikir jugak, bila dia ni nak matang ni? ='= . Mesti la dia x cakap depan2 u.
- jangan malu, no matter what. Malu biar bertempat. Buat apa nak pikir orang nak cakap apa? People will always talk. Asalkan benda yang kita buat tu betul, buat apa nak malu? Just be urself. Jangan malu, jangan malu, jangan malu. Masih ingat bila kecik2 dulu selalu kena suruh buat itu ini kalau keluar makan ke apa ke. Contoh, adik, pegi order makan kat depan. I jawab, malu la ma. Sah2 akan kena lecture dekat situ jugak ='=
Thats all yg ingat for the time being :P
Good night.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
revision
Lecturer : Assoc Prof Dr Seikh Farid Uddin Akter
Subject : Epidemiology, first year block 4
Tonight, alhamdulillah i managed to revise a lil bit on Epid. Why Epid? Because that is the only subject which the notes are accessible and not in the box :P
Nevertheless, it was okay. I tried to concentrate and had better understanding on the topic. Yeah, it seems easy. Indeed, it is actually. But sometimes, i underestimated certain topics which i thought as common sense and could be spontaneously answered in exams. They are easy but y did i get d answer wrong in the exam? Sebab x concern n hafal semata huh. Seems like i really dont care ='=. Not purposely done, but sometimes, cant avoid myself from skipping certain words and lines which costs me free marks deduction especially in MCQ. Rugi kan?
HEALTH DETERMINANTS
saya faham:
It is defined as factors that influence the health of an individual either internally or externally. Means things that cause u to be healthy or sick, either the cause is from yourself or ur surrounding.
Internal Factors:
1. Heredity
2. Lifestyle
3. Socio-economic
External factors:
1. Environment
2. Health and other services
Yup it is true. There are only five. But if suddenly got blank in exam, even one can be impossible to remember kan.
Sesungguhnya, segala ilham itu dari Allah, dan kepadaNya Aku bermohon. Amin.
Friday, June 24, 2011
i love Islam
THE NECKLACE
The cheerful little girl with bouncy golden curls was almost five. Waiting with her mother at the checkout stand, she saw them, a circle of glistening white pearls in a pink foil box.
“Oh mommy please, Mommy. Can I have them? Please, Mommy, please?”
Quickly the mother checked the back of the little foil box and then looked back into the pleading blue eyes of her little girl’s upturned face.
“A dollar ninety-five. That’s almost $2.00. If you really want them, I’ll think of some extra chores for you and in no time you can save enough money to buy them for yourself. Your birthday’s only a week away and you might get another crisp dollar bill from Grandma.”
As soon as Jenny got home, she emptied her penny bank and counted out 17 pennies. After dinner, she did more than her share of chores and she went to the neighbor and asked Mrs. McJames if she could pick dandelions for ten cents. On her birthday,Grandma did give her another new dollar bill and at last she had enough money to buy the necklace.
Jenny loved her pearls. They made her feel dressed up and grown up. She wore them everywhere, Sunday school, kindergarten, even to bed. The only time she took them off was when she went swimming or had a bubble bath. Mother said if they got wet, they might turn her neck green.
Jenny had a very loving daddy and every night when she was ready for bed, he would stop whatever he was doing and come upstairs to read her a story. One night as he finished the story, he asked Jenny, “Do you love me?”
“Oh yes, daddy. You know that I love you.”
“Then give me your pearls.”
“Oh, daddy, not my pearls. But you can have Princess, the white horse from my collection, the one with the pink tail. Remember, daddy? The one you gave me. She’s my very favorite.”
“That’s okay, Honey, daddy loves you. Good night.” And he brushed her cheek with a kiss.
About a week later, after the story time, Jenny’s daddy asked again, “Do you love me?”
“Daddy, you know I love you.”
“Then give me your pearls.”
“Oh Daddy, not my pearls. But you can have my baby doll. The brand new one I got for my birthday. She is beautiful and you can have the yellow blanket that matches her sleeper.”
“That’s okay. Sleep well. God bless you, little one. Daddy loves you.”
And as always, he brushed her cheek with a gentle kiss.
A few nights later when her daddy came in, Jenny was sitting on her bed with her legs crossed Indian style.
As he came close, he noticed her chin was trembling and one silent tear rolled down her cheek. “What is it, Jenny? What’s the matter?”
Jenny didn’t say anything but lifted her little hand up to her daddy. And when she opened it, there was her little pearl necklace. With a little quiver, she finally said, “Here, daddy; this is for you.”
With tears gathering in his own eyes, Jenny’s daddy reached out with one hand to take the dime store necklace, and with the other hand he reached into his pocket and pulled out a blue velvet case with a strand of genuine pearls and gave them to Jenny.
He had them all the time… He was just waiting for her to give up the dime-store stuff so he could give her the genuine treasure.
So it is, with God. He is waiting for us to give up the cheap things in our lives so that he can give us beautiful treasures.
Are you holding onto things that God wants you to let go of?
Are you holding on to harmful or unnecessary partners, relationships, habits and activities that you have come so attached to that it seems impossible to let go? Sometimes it is so hard to see what is in the other hand but do believe this one thing.
God will never take away something without giving you something better in its place.